?

Log in

No account? Create an account
entries friends calendar profile Previous Previous Next Next
Screw Positive Thinking - Elizabeth Unexplained
Lots of data but no answers
greyautumnrain
greyautumnrain
Screw Positive Thinking
Last time around, on my first IVF, I was trying very hard to stay positive and think good thoughts and all that stuff. I focussed on the fact that it just might work. Heck, I even worried a little about getting yarn to make a second copy of all the baby things I've done to date just in case it was twins, even though I knew the second embryo's chances were slim at best. I was all about positive thinking even though it is NOT my natural inclination. We all know where that ended up.

This time around I'm not going to bother. While I believe that there is something of a mind-body effect, I simply can't believe that its going to make any difference as to whether or not a heavily fragmented embryo that happens to be floating around inside me makes it to the blastocyst stage or not. Given that, I don't think its worth the effort of employing all those internal thought police. It's easier to be honest with myself: I just don't think this cycle is going to work. It might, but I'm not going to hold my breath.

On the other hand, I am still being careful. Most especially I am not giving in to the temptation to take something stronger that fiber for everyone's favorite side effect of progesterone in oil. If the cycle is doomed I at least want to be darn certain that I didn't actually do anything to doom it.
3 comments or Leave a comment
Comments
chenoameg From: chenoameg Date: March 5th, 2007 04:39 pm (UTC) (Link)
Makes sense to me.
countertorque From: countertorque Date: March 5th, 2007 07:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have to admit that I'm less excited this time around. But, I'm still hopeful.

Not knowing alot about the chances of any of this stuff, I thought that the odds of it all working last time were pretty high. Knowing for a fact that there were fertilized eggs in the right place made it seem like it was almost certain to happen. I was pretty suprised when you reported the results.
greyautumnrain From: greyautumnrain Date: March 5th, 2007 10:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, it seems like once you have embryos where they are supposed to be it should all be down hill from there, but its not. IVF only has about a 35% chance of working per cycle, and most of them fail after the embryos have been transferred. In fact, I'm not even sure they count it in the IVF stats if you have nothing to transfer. I pretty sure they don't count it as IVF if you don't make it as far as egg retrieval.

Having an embryo is a long way from having a pregnancy. I wish it were otherwise.
3 comments or Leave a comment